Sometimes in my life, people who got into a relationship with me seriously do suffers.. Why all of this thing happen?

What is love?

Seriously, sometimes, I really do feel I create burden to people around me.. Days were suppose to be awesome during holiday.. But problems are coming up each and every seconds.. Tried to solve everything slowly but it's like I'm still searching for the light at the end of the tunnel... It's like the tunnel never ends..

'Is it that serious if I have problems and I couldn't just go to anyone but here.. Sometimes things were not meant to be stated but to kept between people who trust each other.. Why you never seems to understand and think I'm always disturbing you in your dream..If you're not part of my life, I wouldn't even tell you anything that happen around me.. Things seriously do change around you and me.. I think it's like no more you and me anymore.. it's like you and me just happen to be two human that sended to Earth and stood there knowing the identity of each other but never bother to comment and say Hi.. We just stood there and stare..

Words are not coming out of the mouth but just hope we're in the same topic.. But it never were.. We're always talking about different things.. I honestly tell you, because of what I've done so far, I'm no longer that the courage to stand in front of your whole family.. ' Are you ready to meet the whole family? ' => I used to answer this with courage and confidence.. I used to say I am and it's not a big deal to be.. => Things kinda change right now, I would never put 100% into it.. I always think twice and calm myself down whether I'm ready for you...I'm pretty sure you have the same thing inside of you too.. ( Are you sure you wanna be with me forever? )

Inside words of my heart are out but I'm pretty sure you're not happy with the truth.. You're not worthless or useless.. You're a great guy that every girls in the world try to find.. I never think of leaving you but all the things I've made you become causes me to feel that way.. Feel like the old you were changed by me to a fully new you that I'm trying not to hurt.. trying not to be fear of no matter how, when where or what when I need to find you... We use to be the person that we can actually talk about anything, but will we still do the same thing?

You've said, my life is actually awesome and it's not as worst as I think... I believe that because compared to yours, Mine way better... You'll just give up anything for me long long time ago.. But now you think I'm just a disturbances to you.. I've always kept your word inside my heart, I've always try to make things right.. Can't you see I'm changing? All you see is I'm a stain on your teeth that's hard to get rid of even if you brush your teeth everytime.. Something that makes you imperfect if it was near but it was alright when it was far away.. '

Having a perfect role models from all the couples from the world, I began to think that reality is an adventure.. Where there's ups and downs.. I'll try to make life as interesting as it is.. But how can you wake up early in the morning thinking it will be awesome but ended up, You just find yourself In a house of anger and sadness.. I always wish and pray before I went to sleep so that the next day when I wake up, I will never hear an unpleasant sounds.. Why is it been happen so much lately? Where are all the laughters? Where are all the smiles everyone puts up when the wake up? Aren't anyone glad that they were still alive? Some victims never want to get away from their human life, But it just happen? Why aren't people living to their fullest at this time when they actually can?

Am I burden to you?

*sorry readers my post nowadays are so down.. I'll try having some fun things inside..*

For me? You're just like every pictures inside this post.. I never want to leave you but please at least show me That I'm ready for you and You're also ready for me

Ready for both to conquer the upcomings and never think I'm a disturbances to you.

If you seriously think, we're not mature enough to continue this.. Pls do tell me,

I'll leave you and give you extreme spaces..

Love you always..

And you never bother anyway..

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