Chantelle's Adventures and Story

Flash BACK!!

2011-03-18T14:07:00.002+08:00

Good afternoon people!!!

happy Holiday!!! Hope you're enjoying your holiday right now!!! =)

Anyway today's post is about Flashback!!! ' De 'Javu.. ' Well, going through my stuff in my room really are dusty!!! LOL...Flipping through all my cert. and report card really open my eyes... My mum actually kept every single report card ever since I started entering school with uniform! =) I even have my kindergarden's report card.. Where i see all A's!!! =P ' picture of me in black and white also... '

Well, going through my high school stuff, I actually have alot of flashback.. Ever since the day I step into college, high school are like history with the thinking of just moving forward and no matter how hard u try to go back, u just can't!! Seriously... OH MY... so this is the feeling of growing up..

I seriously can't believe, the days in High school had passed.. Now I'm in my last year of college... where next year, I'm going to university! OMG.. I still remember there's once where my mummy draw a chart for me and tell me how I'm going to pass all my years and ended up in Uni... If i'm not mistaken I was only Primary 2 at that time.. And seriously, I dont even bother to understand the chart.. And my thinking was, ' It's still a long way to go..'

Seems like in reality, time fly really fast..

Basically today's moto is about enjoy your time right now...

Don't regret on the things u do if you think u're doing the right thing...

Enjoy to the fullest@!!!

it's been a long long while....

2011-03-13T19:36:00.010+08:00

hello people....

PRANK POST ON THE LAST ONE!!! HEHEHE.. basically it's not prank.. My boyfriend and I were really in a rough page.. AS IN REALLY ROUGH!!! But we settled it so ya.. best to put the word PRANK!!!!!

Anyway...

Story begins here....

Can u even imagine a girl like me who used to study her ass off when exam comes?? I couldn't believe currently when I reached College, I became much more lazier than I least expected.. I'm having exam and test and I've prepared them like 2 days before the real thing.. Can u believe it?? I can't seriously.. I never expect myself to turn out to be this way! GOD>...<>

As level is coming least than 2 months and I haven start preparing.. it seriously gave a HUGE stress when I seen my classmate doing some revision but it only happen to be a while... Then i start returning to the lazy self! Oh god.. How can I be like this and when the real exam comes, i'll say ' FUCK MY LIFE' .... =p

aNYWAY there's a huge new happening around the world.. japan= TSunami + Earthquake...check out on CNN right now u'll see what happen!!!

Lets not talk about sad thing.. we'll talk about happy things..

* Whatever you do in your life, things will get back to u in how u pass the obstacle... CHOOSE WISELY MY DEAR!!! It will affect not only u but ur next generation and life...*

Ohh my best friend: LALA has turned 18th on 3.3.11.. Welcome to the life of being legal and being more responsible!! There's few picturessssssss:

Welcome to OUR life....crazy basically...

This may put a smile on your face with what I'm doing (Left)......

The face on right basically reminds me of one of my 1 year old picture... hehehe c=)

This was the first picture when I first reach there

I met her there....

Didn't I tell you it was a prank??

baby's blur....=) <3

Love this the most!! BAby and I

I love her!! <3

BABY and I + Tiff... To be honest, I love my look here!! HEHEHEHEHE* ewwwwwww*

Barry, and vanessa... to be honest, they aren't couple.. but if they do, aren't they cute?? hahaha

One last Shoot before we end the party!! LOOK AT THAT LOVELY GIRL IN WHITE+ PINK FLOWER!! That's the legal ladyy!!!! <3>

That's all i guess... Oh right one last thing!!

People, and friends.. I've created an account that if you do want me to read ur mails and some important things that I should pay attention too, Please check out my profile on facebook-about me and it will lead u to the right direction.... =)

Terima KASIH SEMUA>....<

not to forget, i've been an obedient girl by attending the MIB talk on Saturday to be honest, It's a waste of time.. for some reason I don't know why I choose attending rather than staying home sleeping!!! HOW GREAT!!!

Time for deactivate

2011-03-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

Good evening people!!!

Well, probably this is the last post you're gonna see me post... Times that I worried much came to an end today... This blog gonna be deactivated soon, really soon!! How stupid am I to think there's a long term life partner when I'm just coming 19th.. People won't last right? I have no idea..

Probably this is the reality and real world where fantasy are destroyed and never exist.. Finally, today I've found out that this world is cruel! People only think for themselves including the love one! People can even get divorce what about being in a relationship? People can call off whenever they like.. People have no real agreement with you, even you're married, u have an agreement of seperation...

Maybe seriously, I'm too young for relationship and learning and knowing about love.. Maybe it's my time to move on and not take love for granted.. For once, I tot I'm one of the luckiest girl in the world.. with great life and parents including a guy who love him like hell but now, I guess I lost everything and very soon, I'm losing everything what I'm having right now..

Guess no one actually reading my blog anymore.. with or without it, who cares?? No ONE!!!~

=> what can possibly happen to me? Someone gonna go for the person I envy most... guess I'm just a useless trash now~~

What I didnt realise is that this day would come.. But what to do..........................................

I should have listen to my brain instead of my heart.. People out there with love life.. Remember have something that can defense u in the future.. U might not need it now or you think it's nonsencse to think of this, but u seriously might need to think about a way to defend yourself.. U need it one day!!

releasing it now is better than releasing it later....

Once time come, no matter what you do, You have to let go.....................

Guess it's the end of this blog...

* Sorry.. I don't even know what I'm typing! *

Time flies!!!

2011-03-06T12:29:00.002+08:00

Good afternoon people!!

Wow... today's topic is about Real world and time flies!!

I just can't believe through my eyes and the reality I am right now!! i can't believe I'm 18th right now and coming to 19th this year!! Next year, my age gonna start with the number '2'... Being 16th was the best cause in some way, you're teenage.. where you reach your puberty and start having boyfriend/ girlfriend in your mind.. Someone that you would love and start to be curious about having a relationship and looking into disagreement with your parents and being stubborn on things that disagreed by your parent..

When you reached 17th.. you're looking forward to be 18th... counting down the days to be 18th where you're really looking forward to be legal for life.. Legal for everything, marriage, drugs, alcohol and so on.... You'll be given choice by your own mind to choose the path you're gonna live through.. whether you made the correct or wrong steps in your life time...

Once you step into 18th... You'll be really happy.. there's 2 choice... it's either you're happy on that day or u feel like nothing on that day...but of course you'll feel this way!!!

- I'm gonna get my driving license first... I'm gonna party all way without cared by parents

- I can stay way up late...

and so on... But.....the thing u didnt realise is that, when you're legal.. there's so much responsibility you're gonna fast... You will have big issue coming your way.... * only step is to get your head into the game.. the more problem you face... PLEASE DO NOT FREAK OUT!!! This is life... you're gonna conquere one at a time... step by step is the best!! So yup yup welcome to 18th life... so much right??

This year I'm turning 19th... OH GOD!! so old!! gosh... although I'm looking forward for being 21 when everything is under my control... this doesnt seem nice.. too much in too lil' time.. I'm starting and were advice to start planning my own future.. and planning my own future is really difficult cause I have to stick with it..if you plan the wrong future... ur whole life gonna be screwed cause, by the time u notice u dont like it, it takes time to change and time is moving forward without waiting for anyone.. so it's ur call....ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH =)

Welcome Rabbit's Year 2011

2011-01-30T18:38:00.003+08:00

Hellow fellow!!

It's been a long long while since I post something interesting and happy! YES>.<>

Anyway today's a grand shopping for me!! Well, I'm all ready for CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! Bring it on!! Really looking towards chinese new year, this is what actually happens, if you have ever overcome this problem on not celebrating chinese new year, the next time when you're going to celebrate, it feels like something that you haven done in ages and you'll be looking forward to it!

My daddy spend alot today honestly!!! Oh god feel bad in a way.. =( But.. we have to celebrate new year right? ie, new clothes, bags, heels, and so on!! Oh right!!! I'm really looking forward to my open house hehehe cause baby Jared will be here for the whole day!! =) And the awesome thing is, He'll spend his 12 hours or more with me! Not seperating! HEHEHE just like super glue! =P hehehhehehhehe

I'm really blank right now! I hope the next post I post will read-able and logical not all crap like this! sorry readers...

Summary:

I'm looking forward to chinese new year because my beloved boyfriend's gonna stay over from noon till event's finish! =D Ohhh.. And I spend alot of money today to get ready for chinese new year! =)

( Oh, I'll post something that happen on 15th of January 2011, where my baby and my mum and I went to empire hotel for a dinner!! )

After what happen

2011-01-22T17:47:00.003+08:00

Well, This is the second post I'm posting right now! WOW 2 posts in a day! YESS>> that's very rare. but I have tooo !

Have you ever consider, the love one of yours just pass through you and didnt even notice that you're just few millimetres away from him? Well, I basically felt like a piece of glass and no one can see me!! I've got shits from school and trying to be ok! I've got shit from relationship, I've to act like I'm ok in school! It's so difficult being a human in this world.. I don't want my emotions to interfere my school life and love life... why is it so difficult to act in front of people!!

I don't want to act sad in front of my family so they will not be worry.. I also cannot act weak in front of my friends.. especially those bitches, they will laugh their ass off! No matter what I've come across I need to act to be 2 faces people! Is it that difficult to be yourself for once? Is it so difficult to be the person who u want to be? Be free? be stupid? be smart? be selfish? and be loved?

Schoolmates consider me as the happiest person ever.. Everyday going back to college with the same route and same routine every morning.. I have to put great smile on my face.. A big one no matter what happen to my day! I have to act in front of them.. Feeling wanna find counselor, but the record will be recorded into my files, it might shown to parents or maybe spread around the school even the teachers said that it's confidential.. Trust me, I've heard some news already! There's seriously no one that you can really relay on! Even parents! You tell them, they start to get worry or maybe overeacted and wanna help you to solve ur problems by searching for the person! In this way, everyone will obviously know!

Who to relay on?? The love of my life? Well, I don't think so.. He can be the best keeper and listener... but can he be there for me forever? With my attitude and all the things I've done, I don't think he'll even glance at me... I've just got one.. ( few mins ago..) People like me, who to turn too? when you have no friends? A friend is all around you, but the ones there's actually there for you are none currently... =( * not basically no one, but everyone's busy * who would want a call from you and come crying to you when you have a great day? isn't that destroying your mood?

Sometimes, I really do envy people who have brothers or sisters or my parents where everytime, one of my parents have problems, there are there for each other.. But who is here for me? I really wish I can grow up right now or maybe leave here.... Sometimes being alone is the best, but too alone is the worst..

I have too much in my mind right now! Who can I trust? No one.. some husband and wife also betray each other or maybe ended up divorce or something... Who the hell in the world can you trust again? WHO? GOd? I really hope so!! I really wish I can communicate with my god right now to tell him everything! At least he'll keep everything and really know what's going on with my life! How? WHo?

I really need someone to talk to right now! whoever out there who know my phone number, if you're willing to call me at least u can cheer me up, Don't worry phone is 24/7 on! only valid till midnight- 23.01.2011... HAHAHA Nah just joking but honestly, I really need someone to put a smile on my face!

lastly: Mummy wanna surprised me something! I basically used my butt to think and find out the truth! But I was actually suppose to be happy, but to me right now, it's useless and probably just a memory and I wish it will never happen and never have known! it's just a wonderful memory that I will be really sad and leave a huge scar on my chest...

Too much to hold.. too much to be patient about it

2011-01-22T15:16:00.004+08:00

' Too much to hold inside, too much to be patient about! '

After all this while, I've been through alot.. Basically most of them are either sad, happy, hurt, pain or maybe calm...

Today and finally I've got new air-con that fixed by my dad.. well not really a new one but it's new to my room! I can't believe after my blog has been so dead since months ago and when I actually activate by putting in some post, most of my friends still do read!! WOW that's so sweet of you guys! well, this blog is gonna be on till the day I seriously break up with him, ie, I'm not sure maybe soon from now or maybe tomorrow? maybe next months or years or maybe NEVER..

To be honest, I would like this blog to last forever.. I've started this blog when I last broke up with my ex-boyfriend.. and basically daily posts are with my current boyfriend.. but if we do have chances to break up, I guess, this blog will not exist anymore.. OR maybe it will be here but just not activate.. What? It's a really nice memorable memories to keep it right? + it will not hurt anyone right? * well i think it would..... ME *

Okie readers!!! here's all the thing I wanna say:-

Remember the post before this? The things I mentioned I have to get it done? Well, basically some of it has been crossed out! What I've realize is that no matter what circumstances you are in, happy or sad or afraid, you still have to passed through.. No matter what decisions you have made you still do need to face the consequences.. It's either sooner or later... And the choices you made is what you will get.. The paths that you choose in life to overcome all your obstacles varies.. You wouldn't expect things to be as wonderful as you wish.. It's not up to anyone to judge but you! it's like, You created your own mess, you clean it up! Just remember : ' Everything Happens For A Reason ' <-- the movie: Devil 2010.. ( cheap movie but it's true about everything happens for a reason )

I've successfully aces all the tests and exams I've been through before.. Honestly, It was tough but I've successfully done it!! Well, here's come the consequences... Have you heard about competition between students, friends and others? Well, it's not great right? it's nice in some way but in some way it sucks! trust me.. I've experiences most of the time..

Have you ever experiences that friends that are using you only? I bet you do without a doubt.. If you don't, dont worry you'll face it one day!! Just wait... but becareful, if you have no experiences, if you don't know, you'll hurt like shit.. but once you've experiences before, it's either you get hurt again and again and again or you've learn from your mistake and never repeat it again....as you experiences it before...

Guess which one am I? Yes the stupid one.. experiences it before and still that naive to believe that people change and never will betray and used me again and the end, I get hurt badly while he/she is laughing her ass off.. Well, this is basically the consequences when you're the odd one and don't feel like joining the so called " The society of Fucking the odd one " .. This is the things that I seriously can't get my head out of.. He/ She can be so nice to you when you're facing alot of problem , ie, she can steep on you and you will never say ouch... ( She's the boss ).. But once you've learn to be strong and finally take her place.. hell no.... the leader of the society make sure everyone's against you! Meaning, they followers are actually blind- flooded but the evil side of the leader.. only very rare people would have seen this! i basically can see this, when she did that once.. but I still do believe that she'd changed.. but at the end.. FUCK NO.. She's the same...(maybe or maybe 90% this applied into my love relationship too meaning I'm like the leader.. )

I have no idea why, this thing happen but it just happen! What can I do? Is it being too smart affected them? Is it being too stupid, affected only yourself but they're laughing behind you while showing the care face in front of you? Hey, My family are not as rich as yours..I've to depend on the government's scholarship to fight for my future, but you don't! Even you don't manage to get scholarship, your rich parents would send you out no matter what... What about me? I'm not smart ass that would definitely got scholarship! I have to work my ass off to make it come true!! What the hell is wrong with your mind? Can't you get I can't depend on parents but government? I'm not rich ok?!?!? so FUCK YOU!!

Oh ya.. one more case that I encounter this shit.. Well, I've found this girl who actually or maybe have feeling with this guys! While this guy is my friends and basically he only talks to people that he know! This lady is really an awesome attention seeker! Every single time, when He talks, this is the place where everyone around her she has to stop them! And she will acted really hardworking and making sure that that guy actually notice her!! If the guy wasn't paying much attention at her, she basically seek for his attention.. Either, she act like we did everything wrong and she'll be shouting at us and of course everyone, including HIM.. will look at us! Whenever I talk to him, She'll be paying attention of what I'm talking about!! I mean, if you like him, why not you suck up your balls and tell him may I get to know you more or can we be friends? I mean, what's with all of this!! She's indeed pretty but every single time, she's acted like she's the boss... She's the prettiest and she's the smartest.. Every single time, when my friend and I talk about a topic, she will never stop annoyed us and cut our conversation!! WOW.. In front of everyone every single time, she will mention herself pretty and others wont! ie, ME~ She'll always face towards me and show off her awesome language that no one understands but me and her.. * Isn't it obvious! *

I may be blamming all this way and some probably known her would read this, then I'll say... I'll keep my fingers cross and hope she will never got this news! Anyway.. this is so far, ladies that I could consider putting them in my SHIT LIST and start calling them a BITCH!! Ohh don't worry people out there.. you'll only be in my shit list when you're actually cross my limit and step on my tail!!

Oh ya, one more thing.. to be honest with you guys.. I get jealous really quickly and easy~ =P especially to my love ones.. Guess what, people that's so close to be tend to be ignoring me but getting really close to my friend! He/ She can basically dress up really nice just to see her but whenever he/ she come and visit me.. That's the best I could get! Yes, and so what I'm jealous over my friend! As I've expected... he didn't wear that awesome.. =) Wow.. i guess that's my value!! to whom it may concern.. I know you're reading this and yes people!!! The blog is going to shut down.. and I guess, you would understand all the meaning of this! I just hope he'll find true love and I have pictures in my mind, he'll ended up with her no matter what! And what I can say now is, I can't do much to my love life but I can do alot to my study life!!

' Dear all the god and especially my god...

I really do wish everything that I'm facing right now will be over soon.. Let me able to take it in and suck it all up and to let go of everything! I seriously do suffer alot right now! Days after days I've conquer all my fear and trying my best to past all the obstaacles I have.. But it just couldn't happen! I just can't find the right moment!! I hope the year after chinese new year, ie chinese calender, a brand new year would bring luck and happiness to me! let me able to conquer all the obstacles I've facing right now!~ I'll do my best no matter what but whatever problems I have please guide me with your warmth and safe hand and tell me everything is going to be alright! I'll choose my path wisely and will never give up! Just give me hints and let all the bad things go off and good things come! Thankyou god~! =) '

--> to everyone in this blog post that I mention please... I'm so sorry to say you til like this but it's too much and you've done too much too.. sorry .. you would hate me forever I don't care.. but at least all the stress and everything is out!! too much on the inside will cause overflow!

Stress and Disturbances

2011-01-09T18:11:00.002+08:00

Today's blog is about Stress and Disturbances!

Tomorrow Is a big issue.. Having 2 test straight in 2 hours.. Having Maths first then having Physics.. Really hope we get to have our physics on tuesday! My brain's really cracked up..

My feeling has been fucked up since few days ago.. To be honest, Years after years, things went really great.. But this year, due to some issue had happen, things like 4 years ago had happen... I was having my PMB exam when I first encounter this problems.. Well, it's not my first time but it's my first time when I actually understand what's been going on.. Well, Things actually started during 1994, When I was actually 2 years old..

It's been living with me for decades now, sometime it's good and sometime it's bad.. There were things happening since 1994 till now, Some were good and some doesn't.. The First time for me to encounter this kind of problem is when I was in Form 2 and 3.. Form 3 was the worst and I could never believe it myself.. But at that time, I have alot of friends in school to talk too.. So it basically doesn't damage much of my days.. I get solution from people.. But At that time, my result weren't that good as well, due to every night I have to wake up or hearing unpleasant shouting and quarreling voice..

Eventually, It passed and have a huge big turn when I reached form 4 and 5 and of course lower six, Last year.. Things were getting better and better... But this year, It came back again.. This time, I knew more about it.. I have to bother what had happen.. I'm old and mature enough to understand what's around me and there's no chances of me being as a child again trying to ignore whatever happens..This time, it's different, as you grow older, you have more problems for you to solve..

I've never tell anyone about the things I have before but to blog it here, I think it's a very stupid idea, But this is all I have... Telling it to others doesn't actually works anymore, but keeping inside me also doesn't work! At least, I can express out my feelings from righting it here.. I'm quite bad at communication with others especially with my boyfriend, He's a nice guy but whatever I told him, We came up with quarrel due to my fucked up attitude, That's what he mention.. My friends have their own problems too.. I have too much problems that I have to deal with

Things I have to handle right now:

- Making sure my days doesn't get worst and My family life is getting better

- Having a fine relationship with my boyfriend * Trying to change to a better person ( came after everything important is settle.. So basically now we're in a very rough edge.. But if Not being with me will make him happy, I'll agreed to let go this time, No more turning back! )

- Making sure I can aces all my exam ( A level this year, really stressing every week there's test and exam.. And now result are in assessment and report= To get scholarship, things have to be great )

- Making sure my parents are proud of me...

- Making sure I have no insults or anything due to having a boyfriend ( Family with traditional mind.. You have to prove to them like hell.. Once you done, you're safe! But if you fail, everything goes with laugher and insult-ness for them and your families' name gonna go down with it.. Parents and Boyfriends gonna suffer cause of me

- Get my scholarship ( once again, proving... That's why I need to get good grade.. But how can I study and concentrate with all this problems I'm having currently.. )

- People will never understand what I'm having right now! ( things that they never experiences before

- I have to look good and rebuild my reputation on my bf's side.. * Kinda stressing cause I'm always the problem and causing much people to hate me! *

- Trying to reduce my selfishness by making myself busy and don't think * How could I?? I miss him so much.. I could only do that if I have no feeling with him! *

- Crying makes me feel better ( But everyone hates it, including me.. I can't talk to anyone but to express out feeling throught that! )

- Friends.. ( Making sure I don't step on their tails.. Never wanna offend someone.. it's really tired of having enemy.. )

- Proving that I can do all my exam with good grade due to some helps ( Once a thing have been exposed, there's no reason to lie but to prove to them you dont mean that way.. Once you lie, you need to find another lie to cover it up! )

- In a class with freaking guineas ( Big problems.. my class is full of smart people.. In order to be in the same level as them, I have to catch up and prove to them.. Really.... Big issue also proving to family on this stage.. They will always wanna look at the bad side of me.. If I did something good, they never say anything but if I did something bad, Hell god, It's your worst nightmare..)

* My family are those who compete ALOT! In order to shut their mouth up, you need to be the best till they are satisfied * Not happening *

-My scary Uncle.. ( Don't even bother to say.. I told what my mum about he msg me and ask me to call him everytime, it sucks alot.. Out of so many nieces, He have to find me.. There's some issue on that too.. cause my family are those ' kiasu ' and fierce type.. They compete and they basically create rival and really strict.. If my uncle scare my aunty, he will never find their daughter.. Unfortunately, Both my parents are the good type, so he basically find me... so ya,, FUCK )

- EXAM and TEST <--- ( Stress!! )

- Starting MIB classes??? ( Finally I tot I don't have to touch malay language again! NOW it's coming with me for life! (My worst subject ever )

=> See this is basically I have alot in my mind! How the hell can I tell anyone!

=> Basically this blog post is something that I can't make people understand me and I wrote the whole thing inside my head out!

Peace out! Hoping to have a great life! Hoping to have a better tomorrow! hoping that someone that can really tahan my life would be there for me!

- As there's chances we might not be together anyone.. It's time for turning off the light.. I can't do much judgement.. I can see we probably might not walk together down the hall.. I;m sorry for creating all the burden! But trust me, you'll have a better life with or without me anyway.. I know you're reading this but since I've made you this way, I don't want anymore.. I might regret but I never want to create burden.. I've made everyone around you hate me.. Now it's time then.. Whatever decision you make... I'll go with the flow.. BEst of luck to you! =') Thanks for the wonderful years, but once my sucked up years are here, I'm no longer wanna let you experiences this.. You're not asked to have this.. You're asked to have great time and being happy not something like this! Thanks!

---- Praying god will see me and help me! I'll never give up no matter what! I'll do my best in everything and this is the place where I reach my goals! ------

Disturbance

2010-12-02T11:40:00.005+08:00

Disturbance...

Sometimes in my life, people who got into a relationship with me seriously do suffers.. Why all of this thing happen?

What is love?

Seriously, sometimes, I really do feel I create burden to people around me.. Days were suppose to be awesome during holiday.. But problems are coming up each and every seconds.. Tried to solve everything slowly but it's like I'm still searching for the light at the end of the tunnel... It's like the tunnel never ends..

'Is it that serious if I have problems and I couldn't just go to anyone but here.. Sometimes things were not meant to be stated but to kept between people who trust each other.. Why you never seems to understand and think I'm always disturbing you in your dream..If you're not part of my life, I wouldn't even tell you anything that happen around me.. Things seriously do change around you and me.. I think it's like no more you and me anymore.. it's like you and me just happen to be two human that sended to Earth and stood there knowing the identity of each other but never bother to comment and say Hi.. We just stood there and stare..

Words are not coming out of the mouth but just hope we're in the same topic.. But it never were.. We're always talking about different things.. I honestly tell you, because of what I've done so far, I'm no longer that the courage to stand in front of your whole family.. ' Are you ready to meet the whole family? ' => I used to answer this with courage and confidence.. I used to say I am and it's not a big deal to be.. => Things kinda change right now, I would never put 100% into it.. I always think twice and calm myself down whether I'm ready for you...I'm pretty sure you have the same thing inside of you too.. ( Are you sure you wanna be with me forever? )

Inside words of my heart are out but I'm pretty sure you're not happy with the truth.. You're not worthless or useless.. You're a great guy that every girls in the world try to find.. I never think of leaving you but all the things I've made you become causes me to feel that way.. Feel like the old you were changed by me to a fully new you that I'm trying not to hurt.. trying not to be fear of no matter how, when where or what when I need to find you... We use to be the person that we can actually talk about anything, but will we still do the same thing?

You've said, my life is actually awesome and it's not as worst as I think... I believe that because compared to yours, Mine way better... You'll just give up anything for me long long time ago.. But now you think I'm just a disturbances to you.. I've always kept your word inside my heart, I've always try to make things right.. Can't you see I'm changing? All you see is I'm a stain on your teeth that's hard to get rid of even if you brush your teeth everytime.. Something that makes you imperfect if it was near but it was alright when it was far away.. '

Having a perfect role models from all the couples from the world, I began to think that reality is an adventure.. Where there's ups and downs.. I'll try to make life as interesting as it is.. But how can you wake up early in the morning thinking it will be awesome but ended up, You just find yourself In a house of anger and sadness.. I always wish and pray before I went to sleep so that the next day when I wake up, I will never hear an unpleasant sounds.. Why is it been happen so much lately? Where are all the laughters? Where are all the smiles everyone puts up when the wake up? Aren't anyone glad that they were still alive? Some victims never want to get away from their human life, But it just happen? Why aren't people living to their fullest at this time when they actually can?

Am I burden to you?

*sorry readers my post nowadays are so down.. I'll try having some fun things inside..*

For me? You're just like every pictures inside this post.. I never want to leave you but please at least show me That I'm ready for you and You're also ready for me

Ready for both to conquer the upcomings and never think I'm a disturbances to you.

If you seriously think, we're not mature enough to continue this.. Pls do tell me,

I'll leave you and give you extreme spaces..

Love you always..

And you never bother anyway..

Holiday or School FEVER?

2010-11-30T09:25:00.012+08:00

Good Morning BRRUUNNEEEIIII!!! ( Click Play before reading! )

Title: Holiday or School Fever?

Written by: Chantelle Phung Yee Shan

WOW... hahaha Formal jua?? LOL =p Anyway here's the real one.. Yup it's about Holiday or School fever? I'm kinda confused myself too.. All I can think during my school time is that Holiday Holiday Holiday.. But when I'm actually at home right now.. The feeling is like I missed school already... Well, There's advantages and disadvantages for having school and holiday.. I'll listed everything down later.. If you don't believe try doing a survey around you, when kids have holiday they kinda miss use it and ended up regret when school reopen.. Teenagers nowadays sleep late and wake up late and this pretty kill their whole wonderful morning in Bed..

Frankly speaking, I'm one of them.. When this mood actually came, My parents and family actually came across this the first time, due to I sleep late, I wake up late right? So.. All I heard were parents and family nagging..

' THIS SAN SAN AHH, ALWAYS SLEEP SO LATE.. DON'T KNOW WHAT SHE DO LAST NIGHT..'

' CALL HER IN THE EARLY MORNING TO CHECK WHETHER SHE'S AWAKE = RESULT: Lied to mum and said I'm awake but got caught when I was actually in bed when she's back home.. SHIT'

Well, this is life, it's true that I've been through all this stages where parents and grandma nagged about waking up late.. They got so fed up and ended up just bond to what all the teenagers do.. HAHA.. What can we say?? LOL...

The Advantages and Disadvantages IN SCHOOL:

✔Advantages:

-Meeting up with friends and buddies even babes...

-Walking around the school when you have no class..

-Finishing up homeworks during free time

-Chit-chatting with a group of friends

-Practically exercising when you walk from one class to another *trust me, it's that huge that burn some fats off your body*

-Oh god.. Missing the FISH burger already..

-The vending machine.. APPLE FRIUT TEA>..<>

-Copying friend's work * Sometimes (shy) *= What? No one is that hardworking ok?!? HAHA

-Hearing everyone's laughter..

-Teacherss are AWESOME AND GREATTTTT

✔Disadvantages:

-HOMEWORKSSS ( every students enemies and Teacher's BEST FRIEND!)

-EXAM..TEST.. EXAM.. TEST..(TEACHER'S LUCKY CHARM.. Ohh god, believe me, the place I went actually have test like every week.. especially after a topic.. Test just wont leave our life..)

-HOLIDAYYYYY (EVERY students fantasy land...)

-Sometimes when you have no one in school (✔ you're really alone.. I know how does it feel )- Been there dont that..

-Returning of results.. Comments are everywhere... ( Either you're happy or you're disappointed..)

- Totally can't escape any classes.. teacher teach every single day..

- Afternoon classes are killing me ( they go for long hourss)

- Papers given were never easy..

Advantages and Disadvantages during HOLIDAY BABY.....

✔Advantages:

-SLACK OFFFFFFFFFF =D

-NO HOMEWORKS.... ( Students partner )

- NO FREAKING EXAM AND TEST TO STREEEESSSSSsssss ( My soul-mate baby...)

- TV is always a good entertainment..

- Ohh like me, sitting in front of computer blab here and there for nothing *lifeless*

-Despite guys, GAMESS GAMESS GAMESS.. ( 2010 edition.. guys are dating their games every single seconds.. The pleasure their games most.. even if the games let them down. there's way for guys to forgive them and Love them more every secondss)

-For me: More junk foods are in my mouth... *You'll see me munching foods into my mouth most of the time* => Not forget to mention, Mum just bought 30 sticks of Ice-cream bar at home.. GOOD MORNING BABY... HAHAHA

- No one cares what you're doing even if you ran naked at home.. LOL *kidding who would do that.. I mean some but not all..

✔Disadvantages:

-I GAIN WEIGHT LIKE HELLLLLLLL (put me through hell, gonna get complains by every teacher when school's reopen * I get that for like continuously 6 years after holiday *)

-The more I sleep, The more my brain function less - happen everytime when I came back from holiday, I'm so slow on catching up lesson with teachers!

-Staying at home doing nothing but to be a couch potato.. ' Caught once by my boyfriend who actually saw me eating alot of junk foods when we're facetime-ing.. Complain came back and hit me when he actually say I'm fucking FAT... HAHAHA.. what to do.. fat is still your gf.. right baby?? '

HAHA well.. that's about it.. In my opinion saja la.. HAHAHA I don't know about your guys... SO practically there's pro and cons on everything so live with it....

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Oh lies.....

I'm never good at it.. I can't lie to my mum seriously.. Everytime I try always got caught and yes She understand me.. After appologizing once to her because I've lie on going out with my friends ended up, I've got caught and shit man...And from that day, lies never belongs to my life.. I just don't know how to lie.. It's either I keep it inside or I tell the truth but what can I say.. There's something called SECRET for us to keep right? LOL...

' I always believe that, once you lied, you have to find another lied to cover the lied.. Why stressing out yourself to cover up all the lie? Telling truth will just bring trust to you. So kids.. Don't lie... it's a very hard job trust me.. I've seen someone do that '

As I said before I hate my blog post being wordy, But I ended up posting 2 wordy post.. LOL sorry.. Okie, I'll try to put some pictures to decorate the lovely post... =)

This is pretty much what happen to my life.. HEHEHE =)

Hope you guys enjoy my blog post..

Love from Chantelle...

THE UGLY TRUTH...

2010-11-29T21:02:00.003+08:00

Good evening people..

Well, it's holiday and this is the reason I have the time to keep track with updating my blog... Daily routine and life are all I'm gonna blog about.. Well, Post are sometimes gonna offend someone but I don't mean too as you're involve in my life.. Sorry for the offensive.. Anyway, today are quite alright me.. Things that actually kept me smiling and put a sweet smile on my face is when I'm with my parents especially my mum.. Love her to the max... We're like so close to each other.. Although feeling inside me I have to hide inside without letting her know and worry about me..

I love my parents so much and I just don't want to hurt them by showing the real emotion inside me.. I've accidentally show it out few months ago during my exam.. It really put a hell through their life.. They actually thought I'm crazy.. Well, after exam, I'm basically trying to create my day just like christmas.. What can you say.. Life....

Today the post is about 'The Ugly Truth' From the title it's going to be ugly but it's the truth.. To whom it may concerned, I'm really sorry cause you just happen to be in my life to blog about.. Ok.. things went kinda well in the early morning actually was awesome sweet.. You've made my day.. I know you actually have girls all around sorry it doesn't happen in my life where guys surround me.. I know I'm not that pretty or beautiful BUT I love what I am right now...

I always and try to be the best that I can. Is fat an issue? Yes I believe... You think Everyone in the whole world wanna be obese? Although I admit I did not exercise much + Yes I'm fat so what? SO WHAT???

Fat isn't human? Fat is a joke to everyone? Why in the whole world people always say people? I know I might not as pretty as those model.. I NEVER BELIEVE EVERYONE IS PERFECT..

Even the most perfect people in the whole world would have some mistake in them.. I don't mean to hurt you but you just hurt me deep.. I know you're just helping me alot.. I just cannot take when you're too straight forward it really hurts alot.. I've already felt insecure once you got back from your vacation with full of sexy and hot girls all over you.. I'm always trying to be the perfect girl that you want.. I never give up to suprise you.. I just can't help it but to be lazy for this holiday.. I know you don't mean anything harm to me.. Im really sorry I know I'm over sensitive..

I'm always fighting for my life.. Always.. Although I have what I want and are more lucky compare to most of the people.. I kinda create all the outcomes I want.. I finally put my parents through a proud moment. To be honest, It's really nice hearing all the compliment and thanks for all the support you gave me that all the stress are worth.. Still after fighting that.. No ONE IN MY FREAKING FAMILY IS HAPPY WITH THAT.. Basically some were jealous. It's really difficult to overcome every problems you know..

Solutions are in your hand, whether you get it done or not it's up to you.. Seriously, After seeing my mummy kena bully by the family members I really appreciate her more.. That's why I need to do my best to make her proud and let all the fucking annoying aunts shut their mouth! To be honest, seeing their jealousy in their eyes makes me feel complete cause there's no way for them to annoy my mum again + it will keep their mouth shut!

I used to cry out loud and keep on bugging my boyfriend and ended up getting a big argument when I'm sad and stress.. But now no more, I cry by my own and start blogging right here.. Yes I finally find the old me~ That's why I can keep on putting a smile on my face..

i'm really sorry to the person that I've hurt just now, I'm really sorry and don't mean too.. Sorry for feeling insecure around you.. I'm really sorry... At least I didn't bug you that much... So I hope you're enjoying yourself.. I really love you and never thinking of giving up on you.. I love you even if I can't be with you forever at least I'm happy to spend this few moment of my life with you.. If one day if we aren't meant to be, I think I will seriously let go of you.. Being together is to be happy, but being with me causing you to become a worst person, I'm willing to let go and let you find your happiness.. I'm apologizing right now on wasting your precious time and money.. I'm really sorry.. Anyway no matter what I wish you the best and happy always.. Take good care ya.. I won't bug you anymore since you never like it... Thanks for everything you really mean alot to me.. I've never been with someone as lovely as you.. Thankyou~

What to describe this as...

2010-11-29T13:52:00.003+08:00

Humans on Earth right now.. Good Morning..

Currently hearing kids from primary school behind my house screaming like hell.. Let's imagine this.. What do u do when you're in primary school?

Is it:-

A. Scream- just for fun?

B. Races with your buddy along the school's hallway?

c. Kids enjoying their home-made snacks prepared by their parents..

D. Stick with your latest gadget nowadays?

=> Well, In this edition, there are less kids who actually do physical things in class during break time.. As technologies nowadays are improving to the max, All I can see is kids with the latest gadget and bring it to school just to show everyone... Surprisingly, Most of the parents nowadays can afford to buy this cool gadgets for their kids, even if they couldn't afford, shops are now offering Loan that you could actually pay the payments by few bucks a month.. Isn't that tempting? Yes I totally agreed..

Frankly speaking, I would do the same thing to my own kids too.. You see, kids that have nothing like this are ALWAYS left alone and being really anti-social cause most of their friends talk about is this kind of topic.. While the few that doesn't have anything like this feel left out and being alone which will affect their growth..

=> Things have changed greatly.. Children nowadays even own a facebook account even they are way younger than age required.. I mean what's the point of having the account but you don't really use it? I even seen children whose in primary actually own an Iphone.. I mean what's the point at that age you're getting all this? isn't it by the age of that, you should be enjoying and running and screaming or just do some crazy things that kids use to do?

Every single time I passed by the toy section..

Frankly speaking, there's not even a single kids that feel amazed by all the new toys that have been invented or created for them.. I mean when we're kids, Barbie dolls are the most famous toy ever.. Each Barbie dolls cost about 30-70 depends on which type you're buying.When we receive a present for our b'day, we're hoping it to be a wonderful dolls.. Price actually went WAY DOWn than it used to be.. I was like..What in the world is happening to earth?

Talking about my childhood, we actually need to earn something to get what we actually want.. But kids nowadays, with a lil' bit of ' Manja and majal' they actually get what they want in the instant and trust me, things that they want doesn't cost cheap!

Will the childhood in future is only dealing with gadgets ?
No one will care about the kids' joy on running here and there?
Playing tea house or 'masak' with friends their friend?..

Well, what can I say... they are what they will be when they grow older... Just like our grandparents saying that we're actually very lucky and this and that... Just let life be life and see where it bring us..

'Children at young age must exposed them to the nature and let them have fun.. Value all the toys that are created for them ya... Let have a great childhood instead of replacing your childhood with gadgets.. Times will come when you real old enough so.. ENJOY...'

It's been a long long while...

2010-11-28T11:50:00.014+08:00

Good morning Brunei..

As you know I'm from Sabah whose lucky to have a yellow IC in Brunei.. No worry I will always remember my cousins and aunts including Uncles from Malaysia.. As that's part of my family too...

It's been a long long while since I've blog.. Gosh can't believe it's still here.. Was kinda ashame as the last blog was updated on 15th of July 2010.. Anyway It's like almost the end of 2010.. ARGHHH... time flies really fast as usual..

' Time flies..

Humans doing their own things..

All Goods and Bads come and goes..

Still have to live till the day ends..'

Well, I don't know where to begin!! A lot of things happens to me during this months... It was up and downs though.. Glad that I have overcome each and everything and was really happen for every single thing... hehehe Life is life.. whether u wan the outcomes to be how exactly u expected is up to u.. So.... Grab all the chances people while u regret in the end!!

Ok...

During August and September...

I turned 18th.. How wonderful isn't it? I've gotten my first pet from baby Jared (11th of August 2010).. A pair of loving Guinea Pigs.. Male: COokie and Female: Fluffy!! I'm 18th and I'm legal already!! People all around me are talking about having driving license.. WOW isn't it?? hahaha Most of my friends are actually enjoying their driving lesson.. HEHEHE If I happen to be lazy I'll just call them up and ask for a ride.. WEEEEEEEEEE... * mean me... *

September 17th of September 2010.. Jiarong's 18th...

Our school have this crazy EOY examination that happen after a week plus of holiday ie, Raya's included.. What a stress time when I actually enjoy the holiday... hehehe

During Raya's time:

-> Went to Bree's open House.. ( 1st time mummy let me go.. wow right?)

The couplessss

-> Went outing... hehehehe (hence, didn't study much and do revision much!)

-> At home being a couch Potato..( Lazy lazy time )

-> Attend school's Raya Day...

Exam time:

-> Panic...( Cry like hell.. argue with baby alot..)

-> Stress.. ( Causing alot of problems..)

-> Having all the negative outcomes ( SHIT)

During exam:

-> Pray alot and think Positive... ( Keeping good and happy thoughts in mind.. )

Exam Over

-> Surprisingly, happy moment as I only do last minute revision ie, 3 days before exam to finish up all the topics that I need to know.. Surprising results too...hehe although not that good but what do u expect, last min revision ( BBCD ) Not gonna do that anymore..

During October baby...

* AS Level Examintation time baby!!!!! *

SHIT As usual.. but did an earlier revision as time of examinations are week after another!! LUCKY right?? hahahaa But stress out too cause everyone in the whole world sitting for the same papers basically competing with each other..

I always complain about people compete but it actually help me moving on.. I kinda like that feeling and that's why it never leave me.. The more powerful my enemies are, the more I stress and panic.. hence, Study all the best * Chinese theory= Kiasu *

Quarrel alot with baby too.. continuous for MONTHS >.< ***

Parents actually step into our problems and ended up bigger chaos more...

My tears were like Tsunami hit my house due to Stressssssssssss

Everyday went to school sad and pretend to be alright..

Try so hard to put a smile on my face..

Cheeky mood as usual...=(

( Oh,Not to mention, My parents renovate my house.. Was pissed at first cause it looks alright to me... but after seeing the outcomes.. Was glad I have this renovation =) )

November baby....( Present!!)

On my monthsary.. 3rd Of November... I was so happy cause I finally finished MY F*CKING EXAMS... HEHEHE now that's the place where u seriously seeing me enjoying my holiday like hell... Everyday are like Christmas to me..

= Moods are better...

= Less quarrel...

= Having a lovely mood with baby..

= Things are getting better since I have no stress and hehehe outing baby!!

= Baby fly here and there ( KK and KL... Haiz... working + vacation...Hell lots of present )

= and here I am.... the old and normal Chantelle's back baby.... Enjoy to the fullest...

26th of November 2010... One of the best day every... my pet, fluffy gave birth to 3 lil' guinea pigs.... ARGHHHH How cute are they!!!~ Smile lil' tiny lil thingyyyy!! ( Love them to the maxxxxxx)

= keeping one of them.. MOO MOO...

Upcoming events:-

1. Outing with BABESSS on 4th of December 2010.. (Saturday) => see ya all in MALL...

2. Going to K.K alone (Independence for once in my 18 yearss... Gonna try it)

3. Eddie's koko wedding during 19th of December 2010..

4. Baby Jared's grandma 70th b'day on 19th of December 2010..

5. Vacation to Thailand with family!!! <3>

Presents are the best!!

His Majesty's Birthday!

2010-07-15T22:44:00.009+08:00

Good Evening people!!

Today it's His Majesty's 64th B'day! Happy B'day Sultan!!

Woke up like 5.30 in the morning rushed into the toilet to get ready! GOSH! Cause we were asked to be in school before 6.15am.. Is it possible? I have to rush here and there cause I never went to any Occasion during High School life, Always be in the 'Escape' list.. So yup! When I reached school it's almost 6.30am, Luckily the bus hasn't go yet and Surprisingly My friend who came because I have no one company was there way way early, by 6..See how sweet is she!

Okie, things went well after i see that there's people companying me, orelse I'm so gonna be alone! As I said before everything happens for a reason.. Beginning to get what does it mean! Well, if I haven go today, I wouldn't know how lucky I am to be a student right now.. Do you know that a student life's gonna end when u actually grow up and start working! let's take ur parents as an example, try asking your parents' how's their childhood, ask them to tell u the great story they had before by queuing up like ages ago in the hot sunny day where friends are around them! They will tell u the story..

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Reaching Bandar, we're consider late when we reached our destination..Every high school students were there.. Basically it's only left the Upper Six students! As for PDS, they stole our place and refused to move back for we ended up squeezing in a small corner where the guys are all standing at the back and all the girls as usual, stand in front! Our location is in front of the post office how cool is that right? It's near to the main gate of Padang SOAS.. Nothing much going on till 8.30am, What a coincidence when His Majesty actually come early today for this occasion, He looked so Happy..Okie, to be honest, we waited and woke up so early for this flag waving and we do suffer alot, but it's all worth it when His Majesty arrived in this 5-8 seconds with His Majesty sitting in his car with a smile on his face and his hand waving to us,It's all worth it seriously.. Worth standing here for him as u can feel how happy he is! No more complains for this, Basically, it's nice =p Although our distance were like 1.5m away

Exciting part's coming, I've saw my cousin , Eileen Lim from SMJA where they stand next to SMMG.. Cool right, after Sultan went into the Padang,they have a put 12 cannon bomb to the sky as a respect, everyone got so shocked and I admit I did too, I actually jump up and felt like ' What happen, why got bomb? should I run? Is anyone hurt..' Then my friend told me about this thing so ya.. How stupid I was right? Okie, after that Me, Nazatul Tiffany, Cindy, Cindy's friend and Kate were actually planning going to the stall to buy some food 'that's like another end from where we're standing ' Cause we're passing through Menglait, so Tiff and I decided to find our ex-teachers which i totally agreed with it! I talked to all the teachers who taught me before and I'm really happy to see them! =] Chatted with Most of admin and Examination section teacher, with Sir Nick, and Sir Harry and of course Mrs. Alder! *Mummy's favourite teacher, Student's nightmare teacher, mine so-called, Cool teacher who doesn't care about anyone at all!* Oh not to forget, i've seen some of my ex-classmates from Menglait, Syafiqah, rahmah, and Aqilah! OMG! it does feel like home when I see them! It feels so right!.. Tat's the point about everything happen for a reason, If I didn't go, i will not get all this from today's experiences.

=The aeroplane my baby come back with, the tag that I'll hold if I'm there!=

Oh not to forget my baby lin, hahaha He came back yesterday morning like 2am, It was a suprise cause He actually have to come back to Brunei today.. Oh well, I'm glad that he's back, at least I have him by my side! Loving him each and every seconds! Although we're keeping some distances and space with each other knowing we have each other in the heart, It's all meant for it! so ya, I love my baby lin!! =p Baby spend money on me again.. He bought a perfume that cost like RM 200+.. crazy right? and he bought my mum and I a box of Patchi chocolate when he actually went to mall to collect my chop =) In some way, i felt complete having him, He's a need for my life, so if any girls out there wants him, I'll be telling you this ' FUCK OFF.. Get your own man,If u can't find one, screw your life, He's MINE! SO back off or I'll bitch slap you! >=( '

The perfume!

Baby starting new job tomorrow at QAF BMW center.. cool right? Finally No BOUSTEAD! *No offences* But ya all the best baby dear, You'll do great and You'll enjoy ur day tomorrow with new life new enviroment and new to everything.. I know you can do you cause You're my baby dear... I believe you like how you believe me! Remember best thing is to wake up and making sure you're changing urself and everything to something good and you'll feel complete when you did it! that's how I feel so far! Okie time to say Bye bye and off to bed!

Oh well, it's late already I'll be sleeping like right now! hehe hugs and cheers everyone and once again HAPPY BDAY YOUR MAJESTY!!!!

Love from Chantelle.313

What a day...=]

2010-07-13T21:31:00.011+08:00

Hey readers,

Hi, I'm here again today after knowing that I actually can change the position of the pictures been uploaded! So ya, here I am..activating my blog again, i believe there might be only few people reading this blog it's alright, I'm just feeling free to write all my thought! hehehe Okie, stop this intro..

Anyway my day was quite ok except for some part, which was ASKED TO GO FOR FLAG WAVING DURING His Majesty's b'day! Worst news ever from the morning! What a morning glory right? That's not the worst thing, the WORST thing is that Only BE 11 - BE 20 will need to attend! Isn't it unfair? That's not that bad, this is the worst of all, all my friends from ex- Menglait Secondary School weren't involved! They're in Be 1 - 10 So Lucky them as always!! How Wonderful isn't it? Well, All I have to say My parents would seriously asked me to go... Scholarship thing! So ya, get ready for the tent! *SHIT!* After all this while I've been staying indoor so I can regain my fairness now, Just for a day I freaking have to wake up like 5 in the morning and Just for a few seconds, his majesty gonna pass by me just like that.. The worst thing is tat we have to find our own STICK FOR FLAG! Ok..by thinking on the positive side, Everything happen for a reason, So that's the only thing I could persuade myself attending this occasion.. hehe =p

Oh right, today, My baby finally reach K.K at 5.30pm.. See after all the moving forward using boat from Labuan, he finally reached K.K with the seasick shit, hahaha but oh well, that's the first experiences for him though.. Make sure he come back in piece ok already! =] *Enjoy ur trip dear! hugss..I'm missing u more and bit by bit, so i wont feel alone..' This is the best time for being a nerd! It does help alot! Not to forget, About school during Physics class, GOSH I've find out that my Physics test will be held either 19th of July or after that I seriously do hope it falls later 19th of July so I could prepare more!! PLS GOD~~ SAFE ME~ I'll repay u in return! =] Was kinda moody after hearing that! K enough said... MOVE ON!~

In the afternoon, I successfully watch two movies after finish download them Last night! hahaha Surprisingly, I've watch eclipse and Loving it!I've never watch the first two of the movie...Weird right? But it's a scene that I fall for not the movie and story Just think it's cool! Seriously, would u choose to have a vision of hearing everyone's mind? hahaha From one of my classmate, Christina, she choose to be a mind reader and I agreed with that too, it's cool and hehehe u'll know whose talking about u! Whose using u..=] Here's some sweet picture that I've found in google! =] Enjoy..

The Characters...

Look at the SEXY BODY and the Hot charming face? GOSHH! *Melt!*

I love this part, when Edward actually tot he's dying.. Even he almost died, he still look at Bella telling her 'I'll die for you and You're the last person that I wanna see before I stop breathing!!'

I wish me and my baby will ended up like this too.. SWEET! You can see how Edward is madly in love with Bella by the way he kiss her!

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Okie, The next movie was Diary Of Wimpy Kid, I think Cinema has preview this movie months ago, hehe..Cause I didnt get the chances to watch due to some reasons, Maybe it's test or exam, no idea.. but ya it was funny as I'm a big fans of Diary of Wimpy Kid... I actually collect their books! =] One of those type of book that I can't resist on owning them. For some cool pictures I've found...

Introducing the Hot BROTHER RODERICK from 'Diary Of Wimpy Kid' *Hot!, Droolss*

One Funny and Cute scene from the movie! i agreed It's kiddy's movie but it's funny!

A young boy with awesome mature thinking but doing something wrong that totally didn't admit!

As you guys know I never like having wordy post, All I want is wordy post and also some cool pictures that seem really cool with it.. hope u wouldn't mind I destroy my own page ya? *What am I talking about!*

Just one short note for my baby lin, hehehe

--> Baby Lin, Please do come back in a piece k? Be safe alright? And freaking Don't spend much there! Enjoy it only but don't spend If I find out that u're coming back with hell lots of gifts, buaaa duii... bie, u come back i'll be having rotan with me waiting for u ohh =p Anyway I just wanna say i've been missing u alot as in extremely lots, Wish days pass by just like that, but in someway it's nice too, giving both of us time and distance, Once in a while it feels really nice, Don't worry I only belongs to u no one else and All I can say is I've never find anyone but just quietly waiting for u return! Hehe so basically, if u wanna ask which guy company me? I'll tell u There are 2 or 3 guys that's companying me all this long.. U wanna know who? ahha let me tell u.. the names : Physics, Chemistry and Maths.. hehehe =p Hear that? hahaha Love ya lots bie.. Enjoy ur time in KK with ur friends alright.. Don't worry about me I'll be alright heheh Hugsss =] Yours forever.. Hugs and Kisses from Chantelle.313

WOW!!What a long long while!!

2010-07-12T20:33:00.006+08:00

Hey guys!

It's been a long long time since I've last blogged! Ok I believe, All my friends have gave up on reading my blog! It's been a really long time since I've last blogged so it's obviously really not updated!!

I think it's been approximately a year or maybe less that I've start to write something here! well, the good news is that i will always keep this blog active! Although it's like ages since I've updated it! well this blog is create because I've got no one to talk to since I've last broke up with my previous ex.. And the other reasons is to drop down every single things that had happen when I started my relationship with Jared Lim, as u can see his name is all over the page!

I've uploaded new profile picture for this blog, it's the current me and my baby! hehe Taken on the 10th of July 2010!~ It's been 14 months and coming 15 months with my baby... I love him just like a small lil' kid that love chocolates! There's alot of rough edge but we survived.. I'll try uploading more nice pictures if I really have time, as I'm going to sit for my examsssss really soon!

Life in A'level have there own up and downs, GOSH.. Feel really great cause Times do flies.. And all of the sudden I'm in form 6.. Few more months I'll be getting good greats and have my scholarship and say Bye bye.. But no worry still can see my lifestyle through this wonderful blog! Hope uploading pictures wont be a problem!! hehehe =p

Oh! FiFA WORLD CUP 2010 has just ended like this morning at 5.30am.. SPAIN WINN!!~~~ ahahha wohOO!! gonna wait for another 4 years for the next one! And My baby just went to KK today... Missing him every seconds and here I am Destroying my own page hahaha Hope he misses me too!! * I'm absolutely sure he does!! ahhaha *

Hugs people..I'm off now! Gonna finished up my homeworks and get ready for school tomorrow!!

I PROMISE U GUYS, I WILL UPLOAD AND UPDATE MY BLOG YA?!? AHHAHAHA

Loving Jared Lim.313 each and every seconds!

Chantelle.313

the day before thailand!!!

2010-02-12T20:29:00.004+08:00

Hey guys!!

It's me again.. HAHAHA.. seem like I've been blogging recently nowadays right? Well only for this both consecutive days! Cause I'm going to THAILAND aka Tie-land!! hehehe..

I'll be leaving for thailand tomorrow morning arond noon. Flight is 12.35pm with Royal Brunei Airlines! hehehe We've booked our ticket like last year for this trip! Because of we can't celebrate Chinese New Year this year due to my late passed Grandma in Kudat.. So I decided to go to Bangkok, Thailand.Sadly can't spend my time with my baby in Brunei for Valentine's Day.. My first and one and only Valentine's with my darling but at the end NOPE!!

But, it's ok! + My main aims of going there is because I need to update my 'almari' with new and much more mature lil' bit clothes! Been buying cartoon-y shirt alot so now! hehehe Hey I'm 18th now, so it's my choice and time to grow up a lil'. Cheap and reasonable price, why not right? + good quality and of course quantity! hehehe

So, I'm going off to Thailand tomorrow, Wish I have a safe journey! hehehe Safe but not SAVE!! hehehe gonna spend like hell tomorrow~~ reache there at 1 which is our time at 3pm..

Have you guy bought new clothes and have your hair done? hehehe I bet you did! Today, I really enjoy my whole afternoon!! Went to Saloon, Cut and Dye my hair and also, Manicure and Pedicure! hehehe After 5 years that I've done manicure and pedicure! This is my second time doing it! =p Isn't it enjoyable?

I've spend quite alot today! hehehe Look what I've bought!!

1. Chocola's, Crispy Choc = $3.80

2.Milano Doiuble Chocolate = $4.70

3. The Pinky Binding Book = $3.50 *my own organizer*

4.Pop Pop = $2

5.Big eye, Lady Bird Calculator = $3.90

6. Chalk board= $3.90

Hehehe.. Spend alot right? Yup that's me! Sorry la! Too into this things, Love it so just buy it!! ahhahaah anyway enjoy people! Have a great Happy Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day k?

AND AND AND!! LAST MINUTE DECISION.. I'VE GOT A CALL FROM MY BABY:-

BABY: Hey dear!! I've got a news for you!

Me: Yes bie? What is it?

Baby: I'm going to Kuala Lumpur tomorrow!!

Me: WTH?!?!? I was actually planning to make you miss me more by going off to Thailand! WTH with going to KUALA LUMPUR?

Baby: Don't know Haddy's parents asked me to follow them too! hehehe SO I was like ok!!

Me: WOW!! That's great! cause, I'm leaving and you're leaving too? WAHLAN!!!

Baby: hehehe At least I can meet you in Airport too..At least we check in together! hehehe

Me: OK, so when are you coming back?

Baby: Tuesday midnight!

Me: hahaha at least you could miss me a lil' while! heheh

Baby: I'm not sure whether I'm going or not cause I have work tomorrow!

Me: Go la.. What for striking ur ass off and ended up giving the compliment to others! Impossible right? Stupid Company with NO EYES!!

BABY: I'll update you k? whether I'm going or not!!

See people!! Isn't it sucks? Everytime like that want!! haha but it's in a good way too! Let's look on the bright side! hehehe He go overseas, I'll get more presents again!! hehehehe GOOODDD~!~~!!! NO OBJECTION !!! go dear! go~ hahahhaha

Anyway it's getting late now! I'll be going to bed so tomorrow I'll look fantastic for my flight to Thailand!! ahhah I love you darling!! Hope you're going to KL to enjoy not to buy things for me la!! I want you to enjoy k? Love ya lots!!

Chantelle.313 is -OUT-

START A NEW LIFE WITH NEW SURROUNDINGS~~

2010-02-11T14:28:00.021+08:00

Hey guys!!!

It's been a long while since I've blogged.. Anyway I have to wish everyone a happy ADVANCE Valentine's Day everyone in this world including couple or none couple..Seriously, even if you're not with anyone it's ok, this year might not be your choice but the upcoming year might be so don't worry people! Wish you all the best k?

As you can see the picture on the left side, Yup!!! That's my valentine's present from my baby!! As you can see how does the wonderful necklace look like.. LOL! It's a white gold and a combination of gold pendant as the heart lock..Baby bought it during his vacation to S'pore!! Seriously, it cost alot! S$ 300- S$ 400. See how sweet is my baby! As for his reason, he love me that much thats is why he wanna lock my heart and only him has the key to unlock it..So far, He wouldn't and never will unlock it! =p

Do you guys realize that Chinese New Year 2010 and Valentine's Day of 2010 are the same. After living in this world for this past 17 years, this is the first time, I encounter this day. Kinda sad cause It's actually a day when couple are actually going to spend their times together and privately and ended up with whole family.. In some way it's good cause you can bring your partner back to your house and for once introduce her to the family! Isn't it great? Ok, done with this topic.. Once again, Happy Valentine's day and Happy Chinese New Year to everyone!!

Ok, Last Saturday was the most horrified day ever!!Especially For whole Brunei's Form 5 students!! After all this while, we had heard about rumors and been through alot.. Guess what happen!! Result's came out!!I tot result will be out by THURSDAY and ended up disappointment, so starting from that day onwards, I slept late night, To make sure I wouldn't wake up early and starting to worry about result is coming out or not..It was a successful way and ended up like lifeless! Worst experiences ever.. so Do NOT try this at home, you'll seriously feel like lifeless and worthless dude!

I continued to do the same thing on the next day which was Last friday! ended up waking up like 12+ in the afternoon.. Felt better cause don't really have much stress and worrying all the way.. Guess what? As soon as I woke up to check on my phone, I saw 2 messages, one is from my darling of course, then the other one is from my babe, Vanessa.. She message me that one of her friend got the message from DST on registering the Result! I was like WTF!! On the day that I felt really tired and lifeless is the day that I received my result!! SHITTTTT!!!

After I called my mum and inform her that result is coming out that day, I got a call from my SIR!! Sir Nicholas Bateman, Biology teacher, HOD of Science department! EISEH, ADA PANGKAT LAGITU!! of course la.. He was like:

Me: SIRRRRRRRR!!!

Sir: Hello Chantelle, I've got your results in my hand!

Me: OMG! Sir, Dont lie la.. Impossible!!

Sir: No it's true, I'm having all your results right here in my hand! So are you ready?

Of course it's a NO!!!! I replied!!

And So, my sir ended up telling me everything! hahha Was shocked when he first mention I got B and C only, till he mention A.. I'm going crazy! OMG!! FINALLY I'VE LISTENS TO ACES!! My result was ok! Not really that good as compared to those who got hell lots of A! So ya.. Still satisfy 8O's!! hehe so it's 3A, 3B and 2C.. hey seriously, I'm really happy already!!!

* A small proof with my currently the latest picture of me.. Have to tie up my hair cause there's obvious colour hehehe*

This pictures are proving that some of my gifts that bought by my baby! hehehe.. Sweet isn't it? and Seriously I'm one expensive girl! No!! He's the one whose buying me this things! I've asked him not to get anything for me but ended up he spend like half of his money on me!! But still, He just want me to have the best! How sweet is my baby!! Love you lots darling!!

The perfume that I wanted most, he bought for me! hehehe sweet!! Muahs.. The cap he bought for me too! LOL thanks darling.. And also the present for my Valentine's Day as you've already seen at the top! Thanks darling! It's all from my baby!! muahs thanks!

Of course not the Mouse! hehehe I bought the mouse on the same day I've bought my laptop, Hp Mini 311.. LOL sweet isn't it? That's my present from my mum after taking my result! And as I promise my mum I'll buy her a wireless mouse, she got the same one as me, She's really happy and glad! Oh not to forget, Baby went out with me and mum after he came back from S'pore in the morning and to pass me the gifts he bought for me! How sweet!! One time experiences~ =p here are some pictures! enjoy!!

Isn’t it wonderful? Heheh Ok now after receiving the news of my result from my mummy, Kakak Fina , mummy’s college which was also used to be my college, she gave me this present for my result! Hehehe cool isn’t it? Hehehe

Let me show you what I’ve bought on the 10^th of February 2010 as I went to Mall to take my laptop! Hehehe see!!

So far this what I’ve bought in one night! Freaking lots right? Except for my Baju Kurung,! Hehehe Finally the one and only Baju Kurung that I’ve do it as a choice of mine! Hehehe fit well and freaking nice!!

My baju kurong

Lip gloss from Face shop

Free gifts!

My Mini Notebook Hp-311

Hehehe! Ok I think that’s enough for this post~!! Now I’m going to end with some vaining pictures with the gifts that bought by baby!!hehehe

Superman’s cap bought from S’pore, Roxy Jacket bought in One Borneo, K.K!!

Thanks baby! Muahs! Love you lots!!

Chantelle.313

1st of February 2010!!

2010-02-01T15:07:00.010+08:00

Hey hey people!!!

It's been a long long while I've blogged! Sorry about that cause I'm working as a part timer in my mum's boss's office! So basically, I'm working under my mum and ruled by my mum's boss!

He's a wonderful man with a kind heart to take me as a worker! Paid.. was very and extremely reasonable! 0=) What I gain was I've experiences on the work and seriously it wasn't that easy as it looks! So people, I finally know how hard my mum has to work to earn that kind of money! I've been struggling for weeks before I've learn all this thing! I appreciated everything!!

That's the currently me on the right hand side of this corner! Look really ugly isn't it?!? Gain weight? Well of course, I've eat alot of delicious foods and just sit around of course this is how I turned out! Increased of Pimples, and yes Need to buy alot of new clothes! OK! Anyway since I've last blogged on January, I've forgotten to tell you that I've bought a new phone! Sony Ericsson Satio.. Daddy bought that for me at noon on 17th of January 2010~ Was really happy and glad to have cause my previous phone has already does her last try.. If you get what I mean * My previous phone has broke into half! where the screen has destroy! *

This is the proof to show you that I've bought this phone in Dee Jay! B$ 976.00

Currently dropped again! =_="

OK! back to my story! Wasn't busy vaining lately cause was busy with works and everytime came back home, It's freaking tired! Waking up early like 7.30pm to get ready for work and Have to be punctual as I'm following my mum! Mummy's a good and professional worker! Lucky for anyone who employed her cause she's always there early and leave late! See how hardworking is my mummy?!? well I'm only 1/4 of her! hehehe This is one of my farewell message to Kakak Fina, Pengiran Uncle, Lim KOKO, the Surveyors and labourers and of course My boss, Wiston Chong!! 'I would hope you all will forgive me for all the mistakes and problems I've cause in the office! I appreciated and love the way the office is running everyday! I felt proud to be one of you guys! Thankyou very much for everything and Sorry for all the troubles!'

Writting done by Autocad 6.0 and taken by Sony Ericsson Sation's camera!

This is the last January's vaining section! Love it or not? Leave it! LOL.. And sadly, I have no idea why some of my friend's blogged were unable to view anymore! Is it they change their address or inactive anymore! No IDEA!! But it's ok.. I know that I'm dealing with my own blog that's all! My world! So yup!!

If I'm not mistaken, These were all taken During Saturday's afternoon, that's the only day I have time in the afternoon.. Working hours is from Monday - Friday & Saturday= Half day!

Guess how I spend my last day of January.. 31st of January 2010!! Oh right not to forget! Happy 18th Birthday Solo Loo! hehehe Have a blast and may your dreams do come true!!

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Finally, Yesterday was my 2nd time out with my baby! Not much pictures and main focus was to spend some times with all my friends! It has been 3 months ago I've last seen them! So YUp! yesterday was a small reunion between me and my friends! We went to mall to celebrate this small reunion! Hey that's the only place where we get to hang out and of course spend some cash! After all my hard work for this 2 and a half months! I've spoiled myself a little bit by spending some cash!! Went there and invited all my friends their movie ticket! Watched The Vampire Assistant after all this while.. Movie was only 3 out of 5, it has disappointed me after all this while been waiting for it! Pretty sure there's Part 2! Currently into Percy Jackson & The Olympians : The lightning thief!

This 2nd part of the video is copyright so you couldn't view .. don't waste your time loading! *Sorry*

Hope you would like the trailer!! And seriously, Hopefully this time it won't disappointed me again!!

As my friends and I were there early, Lala, Vanessa, Me and my darling (Jared Lim), we went to Secret Recipe for our lunch! Baby's treating us! And Sinic, Wilson, Kenny and Daniel went off to other places for their lunch! And fina came late cause she was out in stadium! She's sick after the trip from K.K!! =( Hope she will be getting well soon! same goes with Naqib..

Hehehe!! I look ugly!! Not really ready! Just arrived and No warming up.. ended less pictures! Sorry baby! hahahah !!!Was hungry craving for foods instead of taking pictures!!

After makan, then we went to book our tickets! Vanessa was watching tooth fairy with her friends which they were coming later on! So this is what we do when Vannie was hanging around with us for quite sometimes!!

TO be more exact! this is it!!!

Then after few minutes with each other, vanessa have to company her friends to watch tooth fairy! So Yup!! We ( as shown in the pictures below) were hanging around in arcade! To be honest. it's my first time in the racing car! I seriously don't know how to drive.. even cornering I did not break but press go everytime! But it was really fun! and seriously lucky! Some people has exchange a cup of token where it enable us to play another round! $4.. How lucky are we!! So we quietly took the token and went for another ride!! Freaking happy! My baby and I got the same taste of car at that time!! Really happy and really glad!! Muahz love you lots darling!!

Hot baby driving!! admit his hot!! MINE Not yours!

After all our tokens has finished!! I went in to K-box to find wilson and kenny! so did SInic and Daniel coming along!! 5 of us were squeezing inside a small K-Box! We had fun and seriously!! enjoying! hehehe Being really crazy cause when I shouted when we sing 'One Love by Blue' ,my voice is louder than those whose using microphone! Meet Dennis and his friend Micheal and saw Leonard and ShinYi and Edwin! hehehe That's all!! having a really great time yesterday!! Thanks darling and friends for being there for me!! THanks!!

One last thing.. My panicking button is on for this week so please wish me luck and everyone too to get their on satisfactory result!! Please please please!! *Pray Hard* I'm really scared!!

Waiting for result sucks! Having result sucks! Reason: We're separating!! But once there's reunion please No reason for escaping k? Deal everyone?!? hehehe and of course, I pray for me to get accepted by MD cause I really have no transport to go to school if I were have to go to Meraggang!! Anyway cheer people! and Pray hard and have faith in yourself that you will get good result!!

Love baby Lin (which darling thinks it's so gay) always and forever

Dear promise me that you wouldn't leave me k?

You're the only want who give hope and show me this world is so wonderful

Without you, I will not be who am I right now! Thanks

I love you always and forever! Jared's.313

chantelle.313

DAYS IN K.K Last day of 2009!

2010-01-01T20:05:00.009+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!

It's 1st of January 2010! Anyone mistaken-ly wrote 2009 again? Well, I believe some still do! What a memorable year of 2009! Well, times really fly just like that! For once, I was counting on the calendar for O'level Examination of 2009 to end and it DID! Now it's time for panicking on the Upcoming RESULT!! SCARY RIGHT?!? Most of BRUNEI's Students are going back to school on the 4th of January, while some of them are waiting for their result! It's actually NOT FUN! You'll never know when does it come so you won't get to enjoy anymore!

PEOPLE PEOPLE PEOPLE!!! How did you spend your last day of 2009? I bet everyone is having delicious foods on their dining table right? Barbeque, Steamboat, Restaurants, WOW! It was full of things to eat and Full of Bright, shinning light appearing on the black piece of sky- Fireworks!.. Of course, Smiling and Laughing all the way! Story here and there!! Aunts In a side gossiping or maybe Uncles will join too! Some uncles watch their favourite TV shows, such as, Football, and so on. Children running around the house, shouting, noise, Laughters, Chit-chatting! WOW! that must be wonderful! roads may be full of cars or MAYBE NOT! Everyone will be celebrating the same function in EACH AND EVERYWHERE around the world!

Yes! This is how I spend my new year eve and new year till the first day of 2010!I've went to Sabah, Malaysia on 30th of December 2009 till today 1st of January 2010! This is what I've bought and before the plastic bag has been unwrapped!

Obviously, This is how it looks like when it's unwrapped!

WOHOO!!

Hell lots of stuffs right? YUP!!

STUFFS first or STORY first? OK, story first k? Yup, I'll go with stories!

Here's go!!

My grandparents and I were following my mum to K.K.. Went down by using car so that we could bring back lots of delicious foods! This is what's all about aren't it? People from Brunei go to other countries just to get some good foods, things and so on. We started our journey around 5.45 in the morning after my mum picked up my grandparents from their house! GUESS what, My MUM'S driving!! While daddy, woke up early too, to help us bring our luggage to the car! Daddy's staying at home so that he could work for more money while I get to spend more of his MONEY! LOL.. Nah, just joking!

Didn't I've said that I'm working part time, I've got leave till 4th of January 2010 given by my boss, Good weii!! Thanks boss!! Bet he's enjoying with his family too!! Anyway back to my story!! Slept in the car for HOURS!! Car stopped in Limbang for it's wonderful KOLOMEE! Grandma keep on saying ' San ah, If you know how to eat kolomee, sure the price will be more expensive!' Well Indeed! I'm a choosy person which is ON FOODS! I've learn how to eat kolomee at the age of 16 when I first when for my tournament! Around 11.45 am, I've got a call from my baby that he's coming to K.K too! *following haddy's family and of course*

Seriously, freaking excited! But sadly, Impossible that we could go out together right and of course actually meet each other!! Sabah is so big, How can we meet?!? Well, he live in Novotel, One Borneo! While I live in my aunts house! EH DONG, originally dari kudat,sabah kaliah!! Jangantah mu ingau ku tinggal arah hotel! But now BRUNEIAN AND I'M PROUD TO BE ONE! THANKS SULTAN!!! Not to forget, it was kinda long QUEUE in Limbang and also waiting for ferry! baby arrived in K.K around 9pm! But then leave Brunei at 12 noon. For me, consider long!

The 2nd day, I've went to One Borneo!I kinda play a game with myself and my god! I said, If my baby and I have faith, we will meet each other!! To be honest, One borneo is so dam big, it's impossible for two small lil' head met each other right? And I can't even contact my baby!! WOW! that's a pretty tough game!! FAITH man!! When I first step into One borneo, I'll be like I hope I can see him! I've looking around like 36o degrees each and everytime, I've even went into the hotel and hope I could see him, if it's happen and luckily to see him at the lobby or watsoeva, But yet, NO sign of him *in chinese, people always say, One side of him also don't have!* So at the end I've gave up! And spend my time looking at the shining and pretty accessories that they sell! I was so concentrating till I've hear a voice!

'C-H-A-N-T-E-L-L-E!!' Then I look up, I saw a familiar face! I look freaking blur and been thinking, I'm in Malaysia, How can someone even know me!?! Then finally, THAT"S THE GUY I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR!! That's the one! SHOOT! it's my baby from above! He was like gosh, he look freaking Hot that's all I can describe! I was so happy! And ya, he's always there whenever I've lose my confident or needed him! I mean, although it's only for a few seconds, but I can feel everything and feel that everything has stop for that few seconds, where I saw him, His eyes, he's face, He's appearances, his heart beating and his breathe breathing! WOW! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT'S HAPPENING!! Well, don't spoil the mood after what happen! LOL, Been pushed away by grandpa, cause he tot some weirdo called him UNCLE! LOL But it stays in my heart and mind like 24/7! Can't believe right?!? Well, Ya I believe in faith + Hope! This meant to be a miracle would happen! never give up!! OK I'll stop my story here! Now for the Stuffs!!!

BLING BLING! CHING CHING!

Phone chain!

A) JC phone strips is for me and darling!

B) Bree is for Haddy & Had is for Bree!

Black Queen is the Main Character!

1. 6 different colours of nail polished!

2. One heart shape with different colours of nail jewels!

3. One pair of pink heart-shaped earing!

4. One alphabet- (J) which mean Jared keychain!

Medicine Box..Cute isn't it?

POP POP!! Miss those childhood! Mum's been restricting me buying this! So I buy it secretly!

*In some way, flash back about a song beep pop beep pop! LOL =p*

Thing that Bought in CITY MALL and some other stores! *Forgotten*!!

City mall purchases!

1. Pink heart shaped bag is for Kakak Fina in my work place!

2. My one and only monkey light bulb torch Light! Freaking Bright! and Looks cool when light is on!!

Un-updated magazine but teaching cool skills on hairs, and make-up! So it's worthing it! Not to mention it's 3 months back! LOL =p

Scott's Vitamin C- Cheaper! And bought for fun! Just to chew the gummy Vitamin!

Loacker- Love those kind of Biscuits! Love the long long type one! Not the square and small!

*Bought another cool coca-cola that's in a tin-liked bottle! Look cool! And price RM7.90!*-

Not Shown still in refrigerator!!

Presents From Cousins as Belated Christmas gifts! Love all of them!

a. Black small-squared stickers for phone

b. nail arts stickers

c. One phone pouch!

d.A pair of earing

e. A small hair clip located on top of the pouch!

f. A hair band!

Anyway, darling, I love you lots! YEAAAPPYY!! baby's coming back tomorrow!!! WEEE!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE AND WILL BE WAITING FOR YOUR RETURN!! Stay safe k darling? I love you! MUAHZ!!!!!!! hehehehhee happy happy happy happy happy!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

Chantelle.313 LOVE JARED LIM LEE LIN (@.@)

Oh ohh!! FULL name!! WOISSYY!!hehehhehe

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YUP!! Front the wording in the picture! yes! You BITCH!! Stop judging people!! Can't you just get your own life and stop saying others! OMFG! How the fuck can you be so freaking jealous?!? SO what, people find love, You did too, Why bother saying people which seriously is FAKE and let everyone know?!? One Word *FUCK OFF!! And FUCK YOU!*

Way of not respecting others = Not Respecting yourself! Everyone have limits just don't go over their head and when they BURST OUT! YOU bitch fucking know what the hell is LIMIT! Get that into your head, you're a human, we're also human, You have feeling, We DON'T HAVE? FUCK YOU!! Stop judging people and look at yourself in the mirror! See yourself first before saying others! What the FUCK you want? OR is it by regretting something that you ever let go off!

If you seriously every go over my limit again, the next thing when you wake up, You'll be in the hospital! I don't FUCKING care who the fuck is your family! It's too much and NOW you're over the limit! SO if I ever see you, One thing i'll do to you! SLAP THE BITCH FACE OUT OF YOURS AND SAY FUCK OFF BITCH!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! HOHOHO!!!

2009-12-26T12:18:00.004+08:00

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HOHOHO!!MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! well actually it's a belated! BUT, SO WHAT!! christmas can be within 24-26!! Anyway people! have a happy holiday! How did you guys spend your christmas?!? Did you receive any gifts? I bet you have!

Well, the best christmas is when all your family are beside you and you can feel the warmth that's given out from each and everyone! Everybody enjoy the early morning spring when children woke up and found their present under the gigantic green tree with sparkling balls and pretty lights! And their mind will be like 'What will I have this time?'

For the girls it will be, 'Is it a dolly? Is it the doll that I love so much? and so on.' And for little boys it will be like this ' Did mama buy me the latest games? Is it a Xbox? Is it a ...' Well, parents never disappointed their children with the presents that they hate most! Christmas JOY!! Never forget your family, friends, Love ones (first priority) and of course everyone in this world!

We're bless from the god, This is where we are, here right now, sitting beside each other! Spend your time with it and you'll never regret! Learn to forgive and take, this is where joy, happiness and love appeared in the dictionary!! Love each and every seconds that you're having right now!! Looking back in the old days make you felt loved again!

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JINGLE BELLS,JINGLE BELLS! JINGLE'S ON THE WAY.. hOW DID you SPEND YOUR cHRIStMAs?

Well, I might started of with mine! I wasted my christmas on sleeping! LOL.. I slept for more than 12 house and I woke up at 2 in the afternoon! Been busying around the house with my mum and yeap, getting ready for dinner with all my family at my aunt's house! Well, I really did wore something hehehe, out of the topic! LOL anyway there's some pictures that I would like to share! Perhaps, some of you have seen it in my facebook already but nevermind, it's going to be on blogged this time!

Oh right, I did receive a present from my sweet and lovely cousin last night! it was a nice bracelet or is it an anklet? Kinda big for me hehehe but it was lovely!! Thanks Ling!! Oh! I've been kissed by one of my cute lil' bro on the cheek!! He's such a play boy!! But HOT!! He's going to nursery next year! And seriously, hell lots of girls going to die in his hand!! Look at the way he sounds and he react! So damn Cute! and In some way! he's the one and only clown in our family that makes everyone laugh and put a smile on our faces!

SO...How did you guys spend your christmas!?!

Christmas Glitter Graphics

And of course not to forget about my friends! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL AND HAVE A HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! COuntdown for 2010= 131 hours and 5 minutes!!

I will always miss you guys!! Hope you guys have a great 2010~ and hope that one day we will bump into each other again!! Since we're separating *jangan tah, kambang if you see each other!! Kirim salam la!!* HAHAHA! I know you guys won't!!!! Oh right, the earlier in my class to get license! ZIQ!!(earlier boy..SENIOR of our class) and ZIMAH!! (earliest girl) jangan lupa bawa us all one day with bus for visiting! hahaha *apakan*

MERRY CHIRSTMAS GUYS and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Oh i'm going to spend my 26th of December 2009 's Night watching Bodyguard and Assassin!

WEE!!! And hell lots of movie I wanna watch!!!

1. Avatar

2.Princess and the frog

3.The Spy Next door

4.The vampire assistant!(Waiting for freaking long! MAll always delay. WTF!)

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Spend your last Christmas mood wisely!! It's never too late for a late christmas celebration! GO on party, but if you miss, it's ok! cause HAPPY 2010 New YEar is coming!!!!!!!! Enjoy people!! And of course darling, hope you get well soon!! Kasien, on christmas you're sick! Get well soon k? Love ya lots!! muahs!

chantelle.313..HO HO HO!!!

Days In Indonesia, Jakarta!

2009-12-15T13:16:00.010+08:00

Hey people!!

I've mention in my last post that I'm going to Indonesia, Jakarta right? YES! I just came back from Jakarta, Indonesia!It took 2 hours and 3 minutes to reach our destination which is JAKARTA, INDONESIA! Was attending the Seminar in Indonesia for 3 days and went there for 6 days!Currently, I'm sick because of the FRESH MILK which is directly taken from the cow's mammary glands.(Too fresh for me and my tummy cannot take it and ended up, diarrhea, High fever, coughing, sore throat and nose block!) *NOT H1N1~~*OH!Indonesia's time is one hour later than ours! It's like freaking delayed one hour!

First time in my life that I woke up like 4 in the morning just to catch up the flight back to Brunei and hell, I was having fever, I have to force myself to wake up!Was really sick and suffering high fever in the Soekarno Airport.Luckily, I manner to control my fever by panadol, orelse I'll be quarantined in Tutong for mistaken diseases!I reach Brunei at 9.05am on 15th of December 2009!By listening to what people said about Indonesia are all BULLSHIT!You should see it by yourself before judging! It's freaking nice and of course things are freaking cheap! B$ 1 = 6600 Rupiah! Been there for 6 days and felt like freaking rich, the currency is like everything in Thousands and of course, I become millionaire!! LOL =)

Currently, Indonesia will be my second hometown! Love there! And not to forget about Thailand too! I love Indonesia will be visiting again! No regrets people! Just go and have a look my your own naked EYES! You will LOVE It!! Like I do!! Love: Plaza Senayan, Senayan City! *Branded shopping malls where all the women and ladies are carrying branded bags and wore heels everywhere! It's like another world that you cannot imagine!* Best shopping mall for me is ManggaDua, things are freaking cheap there and of course it's all new arrivals!! LOVE IT!! Not to forget to mention about the PONDOK LAGUNA!The foods there is like Miracle! especially the curry Fish!! OMG! NO regrets going there!!! *Although came back with fever! LOL It worth it!*

Look at all the things I've bought! Sorry it looks kinda messy, cause last minute of capturing the pictures and YES I love all of them!! Cheap things but look nice!! Spend like hell!!

OK! Now move on to the days I spend in Indonesia!

Arrived in Indonesia, Jakarta on the 10th of December 2009!We went to our hotel, Atlet Century Hotel, Jakarta, Indonesia. After putting our bags in our own room, We went out to Plaza Senayan for our dinner and also shopping, It took us few minutes to reach there by foot! LOL.. Then back in hotel for our precious night nap!

There are some pictures that You could exam in both Senayan City and Plaza Senayan!

There are lots of kind of foods in the FOOD COURT! There are Eastern foods, Western Foods, Japanese foods and lots, can't walk far so I just stick with Western Foods! That's why you see me gain alot of weight just because of the cheese!!

NIGHT IN FX!!!

With our boarding pass, we're able to play this ride for free! LOL.. It was my first time I step into this kind of thing! I've never been in a ride before because both my parents are scared.So I ended up, never been in Boomerang before and some other more rides!! It was a fun experiences and I love it!!! LOL.. This is what we have in fx! Have you guys watched G-force? The way how the hamster escape before the Government officer shut down their team? Yes that's the way of us playing it! Instead of moving up, We, of course, have to move up!! LOL.. If you get what I mean!! I hope this will make a clearer vision for you guys to understand what I'm trying to say!!

Not to forget, my parents and I went there with my daddy's friend, Uncle Jimmy and his son, Jack and Jack's best friend, Aivin! Weird name right? It's actually Alvin, but because of the nurse wrote wrongly in his Birth Certificate, It ended up with Aivin for life! HAHAHA

Now!! SEAWORLD OF INDONESIA!!!!!!

The 3rd day In Indonesia, My parents and I went to Seaworld of Indonesia! It was a nice experiences! This were some of the pictures that I've taken! Sorry I'm not in caught I'm kinda busy with taking alot of pictures! Sadly, I didn't bring my camera! Orelse, there are more to see and more to explore! All of this pictures are taken from my mummy's phone!

According to the picture above, It's what we did in Seaworld that day, I've never experiences this so my parents and I went to try! Mummy went in first and then daddy! I'm the last!! OMFG! I shout out loud when all the fishes come near me!! It felt like electricity passing through your legs and There's like one whole lots of small BLACK fishes come towards you!! I almost cry and yea! Love it after few minutes passed by! 40,000 Rupiah per person for 20 minutes!

The turtle that I bought in Seaworld of Indonesia as Souvenir! Looks cute right?!? You can pull out the turtle from it's house! That's why I'm attracted to it!! So far,that's the thing that I was attracted to after looking through big piles of soft toys!!

Things that I bought so far!!

Dress and SHIRTS!!

1. Pink dress is for me! Obviously! =)

2. Colin Dion, Black with blue stripes are for my baby (Christmas Present)

3. Dankaman= Red with white and black stripes! (Visiting's presents)

T-shirts and Shirt from American Factor!

1. Grey T-shirt is mine.

2.Chocolate t-shirt is mine too..

3.Red Shirt is mine three...

4. Lastly, Yellow Dress is mine!!!!

5. Black shirt is also for my baby lin (Visiting present!)

1st picture= Foods!

2nd picture= My Indonesia line so that I can contact my darling!!

3rd picture= Books from book store! Freaking reasonable prices and finally I have what I want!

4th picture= Arts and Handicraft made by Indonesian *bought in hotel's lobby*

5th pictures= My new night PJs!!

Not shown in the pictures:-

a. Calvin Klein's Perfume (baby's birthday gift!)

b. Calvin Klein's handbag!

c. TheFACEshop's nail polished (PINK)

d. 3 short pants *comfy materials*

e. One craft knife for Scrapbooks (was planning to buy whole set but no $$)

f. New dinner heels! (Black! about 4-5 Inches) *look very classy!*

OK! For now! I'm going to end my post on the things I've bought for my baby!!!

To all the four things, I've bought for my baby!! I hope he will like it!! And I'm sure that my baby will look freaking good if he wore all the shirts I've bought for him! Darling, it's all yours Including ME!! hehehe! Hope you like it and HAVE a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! May all your wishes come true and Of course, I'm always yours forever!! I love you lots darling!!! Muahz! XD

Chantelle.313 ♥ Jared lim.313 forever!!

My First Official Date With My baby!! =)

2009-12-09T18:33:00.003+08:00

Hey guys!

It's been a long long while that I haven started to blog! It's already December and I have nothing to update! Well, Not to lie to you guys, I've been busying working as a part timer in Juruukur CMK! It is a tough work but I can overcome,Not to forget I break down the first few days cause I have no idea what is it all about! So ya..

Anyway from the picture on the right hand side that you guys looking at! Yup! That's me and my baby! Our first official date! 6th of December 2009 is best day,my first date out of this 7 months!!Coming soon 8 months this next year! Time really flies! And sooner or later it's going to be a YEAR!! Can't wait for the day I get my own freedom and I can freaking go out anytime!Anyway I'm gonna blog about that day!! It was nice!! Let's go!!

Well, everything doesn't goes the good way! Last minutes, everyone of my friends cancel! No offence guys,but I'm glad you guys did tell me! Thanks! And at that time, I have to call up alot of people which my baby's phone bill going to shoot up this months!!! And guess what! I can't find anyone! So by that time, My baby and I plus Fina went to Cheez Box for lunch cause I haven eat! So ya! Talk and eat while searching for people! Ended up, we called Phoebe, Jackie, And the other two friends, Fina's brother and also my baby's two brothers! And yea Finally everything is settle!

After eating we went to arcade! HEHE..The purpose of going there is to take my official couple pictures Including Nana inside!! Had fun in it la!!

WORLD IN ARCADE!* sorry guys, quality not good cause I scan it and of course, the original picture have a layer of thing, Don't know how to describe!hehehe something to protect the photo!*

Yup, that's all guys!In arcade! Cause at that time, we got a call from Jackie they all saying that they arrived, So me and Fina went to meet them up and book our ticket! Guess what!! We're watching NINJA ASSASIN! Overall, everything is nice just that the blood look freaking bad!! So that's the only part that sucks alot!!

After movie! We went to Swenson!! Baby said we order earthquake and ask us to eat finish everything and I said I want to french fries! LOL!! We have great time and fun time! Really happy and had alot of fun!! Here's the pictures in Swenson!

Moving to Swenson!

To be honest, some of the pictures I look ugly cause Not yet READY! and fina click the button!

Arrived in SWENSON!!!! + After ordering th earthquakes!

A) Me and my baby!!

This is what we called NOT READY IN TAKING PICTURES!

I love the last picture when baby lean over to the window! LOVE IT! Guess what, he's trying to find the guy that I have look! LOL and mention it to my friends and ended up, He got pissed off!

B) The friends!!

C) Eating Ice-cream with my baby!!!*this is a story!*

First picture= Searching for the Ice-cream! Which one will make him puke!! Mixing everything!!!!

Second Picture= Negotiating whether who feed who first!! Then end up I lose!! Look at the serious expression on both faces!!

Third Picture= OK!! OK fine I eat!! '' Wait don't be so fast bah!!'' I said! Look at his face! He's obviously revenging when the time I mistreat him in a bad way!!!! LOL

Fourth Picture= It's in! Although it look kinda sweet in some way but then hell NO it's not sweet he shove it in!! EVERYTHING!!!! HAte that! But yea in a way had fun! LOL!!!!

That's all for that day!!!!

Anyway Found this picture of mine when I'm in Kindergarden 1~ LOL cute aren't I? hahaha MY birthday that made my mum spend $500 bucks for the birthday packet!!! LOL and yea!! Look we used to have to life to live with BLACKboard and CHALK!

Wendy and me!! MY birthday! And we're cousin!!! Miss those time!! really cute and nice!!

Anyway people! I'm going off to Indonesia tomorrow, Jakarta!! Wish me luck and have a safe trip! K now I have to off to bed already!! I love you lots baby!! I'm so going to miss you lots!!! As in EXTREMElY lots!!Baby! please me healthy for me k? I love you lots! ALWAYS AND FOREVER!!!! i'M YOURS FOREVER AND WILL NEVER CHANGE!!!!

Chantelle Phung Love Jared Lim Always and forever

I will always miss you and only will stay by your side without leaving you an inch!

We'll always hold our hands and face the future! I love you and miss you alot!

How I that day never ends!!!

And baby, I'm always yours k?

It's your voice that make me felt happiness is in your hand and NOT SMILE!

It's your touch and warmth that you give me that make me felt, You're the only one for me!!

It's your eyes that shine just like a star that can make me miss you alot!

It's you that I only want in my life!

Without you is like my world turns out to be 2012!!

Baby! I love you lots and let me be the one to hold you tight!

I LOVE YOU LOTS DARLING!! BABY LIN AND EVERYTHING NICE!!!

I freaking miss my friends!!!

2009-11-22T14:07:00.002+08:00

HEY GUYS!!!!

Today is SUNDAY!! Hopefully, my blog is about FRIENDS! from the graphic that you have seen, YUP I miss all my friends and also my every single day in school!! Well, to be honest with you guys, times flies freaking fast, so enjoy your day and have lots of fun with it! Cause soon, you will end up being an adult instead of a teenagers with pile of books and free holidays every 3-4 months!

Well, everyone, to be exact, every studentSSS are having their sweet holiday at this time! Sort of a Winter Holiday and also a End of year holiday in this country, Brunei Darussalam!

Story in the old days, My classmates have been with each others for 5 Years! For the first year in my school, everyone are so quiet and don't really talk, but after that around the second year, everyone started to talk! And normally we form some kind of group as in anti-social type and the social type~ We have lots of talking though and most of us have our own way!

I believe that we have our best time on the third to the latest which is this last year that we're going to stick together everyday! Everyone know each other well and we know all of their style, that's the 5 years living together in the same shoes with the same socks also! Hell lots of people going to move away form each other and our 14 people that love each other very much going to migrate to different place and start their stage of life! The first step to their own future by building their strategies!

Well going to stop here though, will update more next time! out of ideas. K, going to watch movies!! heheheheh Oh right, guys, if you guys going out find me too yea!!! Freaking bored nowadays! And hell ya miss you guys like freaking lots!!! I love you guys and miss you guys hell lots!! muahs!!!!!!!

chantelle.313

I love my baby lin hell lots! dear!! I love you! always and forever!!

SHOPaHOLIC!!

2009-11-19T18:12:00.008+08:00

Hey people!

Today my post out is obviously being a SHOPAHOLIC! Once again, late blogging! Well, seriously, you can't blog every single day right?!? Then it won't be interesting anymore?And feeling towards blogging will be boring! So this is what happen today! I HAVE A FREAKING GREAT TIME SHOPPING WHILE IT'S RAINING LIKE HELL!! I went to VINCCI shop that located in Kiulap! hehehe I spend about $130 today in few minutes!

Well, I have a great time cause I get to buy hell lots of things!! HEHEHE and of course shopping is just like a lala-land for women and ladies including girls! So earning FEMALES money is the easiest thing to do in this world! INCLUDING ME!! This is what I bought today!

This is the best thing of ladies life with new accessories, clothes and of course Shoes and heals! Every girls have their own Favourite brands, to be exact in other BIG country, most of them will buy branded goods which cause a big sum of money on every purchases! Example: D&G, Prada, Dior, Coach, Louis Vitton, Chanel, Boss, FCUK and more! Of course I wanted to own them one days! But to be exact after buying everything, there's feeling of regreting and spending all your money just like that!

According to both the pictures that I've shown above, I've bought a pair of new Heels, A new handbag, a Sunglass and one free gift small pouch in pink! *Mummy, got the blue one!* Quality is freaking nice! and obviously, Bought it from Vincci! The handbag is new arrival which means, it's freaking expensive and seriously have to thanks my mummy for that! Cause she bought me all the things except for the sunglass cause I always wanted to have one! The previous one that I bought was too big for me!

Anyway mummy was like " San, Look at this hand bag is it nice and cute?"

"Why of course it is, and what's the point of you asking me that?!?"

" No la, just ask only!"

" Why are you asking me?It's nice!!" *having the feeling that mummy's going to buy for me*

" Ok then! Ask the girl to get you a new one!"

*SWEET, I'VE GOT A NEW HANDBAG! IT COST $55.90!!LUCKY ME MAN!!AND I LOVE IT!*

To be honest with you guys, I think I kinda spend too much! I've wasted around $200++ with both my parents' money! Felt kinda bad but happy at the same time cause I have what I want! Love ya lots, daddy and mummy!!!! hehehheehe

Y chantelle.313 Y